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(no subject) [Jun. 24th, 2006|10:54 pm]
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[Current Location |skylar Woods houSe]
[crazy's new form is: |ecstaticecstatic]
[fancy |nothing at all]

RAWR wow totally crazy it is summer and im a junior. messed up. older ppl have more fun HAH. i am at skylars house and her dog is lying on my pillow!

we were gonna go to the show tonight but it was canceled...go figure so we went to the movies and i thyink i saw josh O_o i dont know it was to wierd to look but skylar said it was... and then we went to see Click.... most depressing movie besides about shmit ever created... screw comedies but i guess it had its moral

oh gopd lost for words brain shut off to quiet must talk NOW!
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(no subject) [Feb. 17th, 2006|06:40 pm]
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[crazy's new form is: |chipperchipper]
[fancy |crocodile rock]

C.E.S.A.T.G.

C hocolate
E -clair
S eparation
A nxiety
T herapy
G roup

hahahahha-geometry, good times
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i miss livejournal and i miss you >_ [Jan. 20th, 2006|08:32 pm]
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[fancy |cheekhagoh]

come on babe, why don't we paint the town
with all that jazz?
in gonna rouge my knees and roll me stockings down
and all that jazz.
Start the car, i know a whoopee spot
Where the gin is cold but the piano's hot.
Its just a noisy hall where theres a nightly brawl
and all
that
jazz
skidoo
hotcha
whoopee
and all that jazz
Slick your hair and wear your buckle shoes
and all that jazz
I hear that father Dip is gonna blow the blues
and all that jazz
hold on hun were gonna bunny hug
i bought some aspirin down at United Drug
In case you shake apart and want a brand-new start
to do
that
jazz
Find a flask we're playin fast and loose
and all that jazz
right up here is where i store the juice
and all that jazz come on, babe
we're gonna brush the sky
i betcha Lucky Lindy never flew so high
Cause in the stratosphere how could he lend an ear
to all
that
jazz
Oh, you're gonna see your sheba shimmy-shake
and all that jazz
Oh, shes gonna shimmy till her garters break
and all that jazz
Show her where to park her girdle
Oh her mother's blood will curdle
if she'd her her baby's queer
for all
that
jazz
All
that
jazz
come on babe, why don't we paint the town
with all that jazz?
in gonna rouge my knees and roll me stockings down and all that jazz.
Start the car, i know a whoopee spot
Where the gin is cold but the piano's hot. Its just a noisy hall where theres a nightly brawl
and all
that
jazz
No, im no ones wife but
oh i love my life
and all
that
jazz
that jazz
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(no subject) [Dec. 8th, 2005|01:00 pm]
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i feel very dumb right now. i got my PSAT's back and.. there really needs to be a "You got a --%" no theres a hole sheet of weird gagyees that i cant understand the only ythin i comprehend is that i got a 44 a 34 and a 45. im so amazingly smart. i need a solid number ! bah!

Tomrrows friday. i am oficially very excited. schools gonna go good because mr. perry isnt gonna be there then i get to try and find somthignt o do until 430 were i got to dress up and a be a cheerleader then at half time i will fall asleep or do nothign or somthign for 7.5 hours then we pull into my granparents condo and be like hell yes!

weer in New York. and there im going to spend the 80 dollars i got because i aparently own a part of staten island savings bank. yes.. stocks THEY DO GOOD THINGS! muhahahaha hyper LA

and if somone wants to hang out for 3 hours tomorrow please let me know ^__^
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this IS Operaton Kansas Apples Yakes..OKAY! [Dec. 7th, 2005|01:04 pm]
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[fancy |im in mrs. pinkhams class- if i had music i would die]

hah. i like breakdowns. i had a dream that shall keep me smiling for the rest of the week. or. at least till friday were i have to o out in front of many ppl in aweird mini skirt and dance O_o muhahaha. i have tog o to evergreen tonight. damn the russion-full speed ahead. i am vair scared of that place, lests see, russians who can do back flips and the last time i was there i fell on my head 3 times and started to hyper ventalate and cry. which made it the second time sheri gave me a hug to make me feel beter while i was crying. odd. but i love sheri. and saddly enough i love cheerleading, i even love the streching and the running >_<. i guess i have been over reacting lately.... and jakes still talking to me even though i called his so-called-gf a skank. actually i asked if she was a skank but he still got mad. idk.

Christmass is a good time of year. i started putting light on our tree but its really hard because the blind dog keep running into it and mum had to get a hugely wide tree. But this season better go by fast, the competion needs to start sooon! i am lost without drama-im already loosing my mind.i misses my moose and im gogint o new york yay! getting glasses yaay! and more contacts yaay! and im gonna go shopping yay! and see the huge tree and maybe jessie yaaaaaay!

muhahahahahaha **()**()**

i feel it in my fingers- i feel it in my toes- love is all around us- come on and let it show muh aye fuck fuck!!! okay start it again
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SOS and venting [Dec. 5th, 2005|09:18 pm]
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[crazy's new form is: |melancholymelancholy]

wow. thats what i have to say. that and bla buckinhanduke.

im loosing my mind. i cant deal with my life right now. i have absolutly no control over it. ive never been this depressed. ive never ben this desperate for somthign to hold on to before. ive never thought like this before. who am i. im so sick of hearing about everybody elses life improving while, me.. im just slipping into legend. if i drop out i wonder if anymore then three people would notice. thats all i have. i have three friends. except one was kinda snappy today so i got bitchy and i ignored lindsay all day. and because she cant go to new york with me i have to go with my mum and my brother. im in the library and im crying right now. i made jake really mad last night. i don knwo how to do anything anymore. my life is revolving around this stupid spirit dance becaus rethats something i know how to do good. but im gonna fuck that up somehow and thatll be it. thats the last thign ill ever knwo how to do right. i was gonna kill myslef this weekend but then sombody called. i cant explain how i feel i just dont knwo how to talk id ont knwo how to deal with all this i need someone to get me out. i can try to help myself, but the only thign that makes me feel better is throwing up and not eating. i talked to my mum and theres a slight chance i might move to london next year. that woudl be good. my mum did it. so i want to.

when i got on here i was rereading my journal and i clicke somthign and thne somthign and then somthign to get back and i clicked joshes jounal and it came up.. which it never reeally does. and it was sad. everyday i here somthignt o do with josh. wether its veronica talking about S.L. (rest in peace >_<) or the kids in my spanish class tryignt o be cool and call peopel gay. ormy mum sayign she saw him at the movies or my brtoher asking me stupid questions. kyle talking abotu how 'diner moose' came into being lani sayign abotu who she talked to to find out that paula hates her or someoen asking me what i thinking about. i know whats wrong with me. i honeslty dont know how albert brenamin can say he justs wants her to be happy even if its never gonna be with you. the name himalaya cames from two words in sanskrit. hima meaning snow and laya meaning abode. snow abode.

i have to go to practice now and run, and wimper and strech and get all gross, go home, do more of my project. then put lights and other crap on dog sandy and tree. im gonna get home in about three hours. this si liek that riddle aboutt he guy and the 3 ppl at the hotel who need their change back and they r missing a dollar. where did the other dollar go..yea.. u shoud know that one.
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(no subject) [Nov. 23rd, 2005|12:55 pm]
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world dominance is the key to happiness

gjfbgbgfhbfghbfghbsrtghygb. yea. thanxgiving. i hate thanxgiving. to much food. ugly mess. the only good part is .. uhm.. no, there is no good part. im goignt o be humiliated this weekend. we go to my uncles hosue EVERY year. my ant and uncle think im still the shyest thign ever to crash land on accidetn on this planet. they need to realize that i just DONT WANT TO TALK. all i wnat to do is sit in the closet they make me sleep in. i hate being social wiht them because they always just look for ways to ask embarresing quetions so that i do blush and they can go on thinking that they are right.

this is goign to be the crappiest week ever and i ahvnt had my fags in like a week. its totally pissing me off and it will die and be defeated. i hate the world. its to black and cruel. but heaven is soft PURTY! just kidding laalalalalalalallalalalallalalalallala GAR!! yellow bellied muel ILL FINISH YOU PROPER< GIVE ME ROOM BOYS< THE NUMBER IS THREE

i will kill. and that hyms. HA!


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*sigh* i guess i got a hug today. and it was sad to let go. im spinnign around to fast and i just need somthign to hold on to. blaaaaaaaaaaaa. im sad. but mad. and i want to cry
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this song reminds me of Darth Vader...hmmm [Nov. 17th, 2005|01:06 pm]
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I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete
Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?

This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?
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(no subject) [Nov. 17th, 2005|12:59 pm]
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*sigh* my day is complete and i want to squeal. hahhhahahahaha

i got my guitar down formt he loft, that was a hassle. woot. i started to watch totoro (^______^) and i watched some of titanic, which ive never seen before. hmm. i went t drama awards last night. that sucked. i made hte mistake of tellign my mum that the letter i got was hte same as my JV letter. so i dont have it anymore and i feel kinda bad now.


la. la. la. la. im gonna hang out wiht calie after school and i need tog et strings. heh.

so as this "fling" is goign on, i seem to be grossed out and freaked out, spazzing out and weirded out more then usual.


im gettign kinda sick of this. *shifty eyes*
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i would just like to confirn that i am NOT in a boyfriend-girlfriend relationship right now, thank u [Nov. 16th, 2005|12:56 pm]
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[crazy's new form is: |amusedamused]
[fancy |bateries died, no music today]

Im going to fucking cry. no just kidding i cant say that =-O

hahahahahahaha. no, really im fucking pissed off. i dont want to talk to jake. i never understood wen ppl say they could never be more than a friend. i used ot think that as long as they liked you, you could liek you. i get it now and its making me sad. Calie told meto give it time, which, the last time iw as this weird with a relationship was with josh. but at least i knew i liked him. i really dont like jake. i was in love with him last year and he doesnt even remeber that i, ME his current firstever girlfriend slash regretful first kiss- talked to him everyday and he woudl always tell me he was looking for a girlfriend and then one day he kinda got into me and i poured about chocolate( i feel retarded not being being able to say his name but wen i say i cant, i realy cant.) and jake asked me if i liked chocolate better than him, and i said yes and he said " o, i thought you were obsessed with me or somthing" if he thought i was obsessed with him and the only thign he wanted out of life was a girlfriend, there must be somthign wrong wiht me. yes, after that was wen me verymuch liekign who i was and ho my body was ended very fast. thanx, alot. i asked him out how many times? no, no no noNONONONONONONONONONONO! now he insists on calling me a "punk-rocker" and wants me to drive around in his car with him.

no this doesnt make me mad. if this thing hadnt happened last year if i didnt realize that chocolate isnt all to blame for all my hardships, then i think i would be in love with jake right now. i really think maybe i should just never talk to him again because i never see him anyway. im going to change me sn anyway so y not. hah.

i spent some of my money on somthign that will at least get me light headed. i did a line of nonsense while i was talking to whats-his-face the other day. i was proud of myself but the only thing it did was make me laugh for a half an hour because the guy on my poster on my wall had a mohawk.

i miss Jason so bad. he needs to come abck. he promised me he would find me. he better. i need one of his hugs so bad.

i need thanksgiving also to come soon. because as much as i hate my brother he always gives me a hug wenever he comes home and i need some human being to wrap their arms around me.

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my armwarmers got streched somehow. this kinda makes me mad because they keep slipping off. arg.

i heart me new purse because i can get "compartmints" in it and now i will never be without...help


so once again thank you space mongrels, be sure to visit a theature near you again.

HA
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