|i would just like to confirn that i am NOT in a boyfriend-girlfriend relationship right now, thank u
||[Nov. 16th, 2005|12:56 pm]
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Im going to fucking cry. no just kidding i cant say that =-O
hahahahahahaha. no, really im fucking pissed off. i dont want to talk to jake. i never understood wen ppl say they could never be more than a friend. i used ot think that as long as they liked you, you could liek you. i get it now and its making me sad. Calie told meto give it time, which, the last time iw as this weird with a relationship was with josh. but at least i knew i liked him. i really dont like jake. i was in love with him last year and he doesnt even remeber that i, ME his current firstever girlfriend slash regretful first kiss- talked to him everyday and he woudl always tell me he was looking for a girlfriend and then one day he kinda got into me and i poured about chocolate( i feel retarded not being being able to say his name but wen i say i cant, i realy cant.) and jake asked me if i liked chocolate better than him, and i said yes and he said " o, i thought you were obsessed with me or somthing" if he thought i was obsessed with him and the only thign he wanted out of life was a girlfriend, there must be somthign wrong wiht me. yes, after that was wen me verymuch liekign who i was and ho my body was ended very fast. thanx, alot. i asked him out how many times? no, no no noNONONONONONONONONONONO! now he insists on calling me a "punk-rocker" and wants me to drive around in his car with him.
no this doesnt make me mad. if this thing hadnt happened last year if i didnt realize that chocolate isnt all to blame for all my hardships, then i think i would be in love with jake right now. i really think maybe i should just never talk to him again because i never see him anyway. im going to change me sn anyway so y not. hah.
i spent some of my money on somthign that will at least get me light headed. i did a line of nonsense while i was talking to whats-his-face the other day. i was proud of myself but the only thing it did was make me laugh for a half an hour because the guy on my poster on my wall had a mohawk.
i miss Jason so bad. he needs to come abck. he promised me he would find me. he better. i need one of his hugs so bad.
i need thanksgiving also to come soon. because as much as i hate my brother he always gives me a hug wenever he comes home and i need some human being to wrap their arms around me.
my armwarmers got streched somehow. this kinda makes me mad because they keep slipping off. arg.
i heart me new purse because i can get "compartmints" in it and now i will never be without...help
so once again thank you space mongrels, be sure to visit a theature near you again.